Last night was sooo funny and fun.

Roof combo.
Two 40’s, and countless bowls.
Crunk as fuck.

The boo and I fucked around on this labtop that Will is fixing.
And we kept typing lyrics back and forth.
This is what I came up with. 

“wake upin the mornin feelin like pdiddy

got my glasses im out the door im gonna hit this city
before i leavebrush my teeth with a bottle of jsck
csuse when i leave for the night
i aint comin back
imt alkin
takin moneyu from mah mom mom
im gonna hit the bong bong
and drink uip all night long long
Drop top and playin our favorite cds
goin to wills house and its stinky
tryin to get a little bit tipssssyyyy

i love
the roof combo
gettin drunk with mah hoes
i dont care if they stare
they like the way i fling my hair
oh oh oh ohh
oh oh ohhhh

K RO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

WTF

I just realized I put the date wrong on all of my job applications today.

/fail 

That seems to be my dilemma, lately.

I have so many clothes.
It usually takes me more than a day to do laundry. haha.

But, quality over quantity applies to clothes. I wish I had a minimal wardrobe of cute things, instead of an excessive amount of semi-cute semi-fitting things. 

…is hard.

Pimpin’ is waay easier.

Get 25$ dollars.

Vow to self to just buy two 40’s and not spend the rest.

Buy two 40’s, and weed.

Have 3$ leftover.

And I never, ever randomly get money.
But my grandma gave me money for no reason yesterday.

But ohwell, when I have money I just spend it.
It’s better than holding on to it, for no reason.

I have no expenses right now, ha. 

rather be alone than to not be with the one I truly love.

I don’t wear the latest fashions, but I wish I could afford nice semi- expensive clothes.

I live in a house but I wish I lived in a big, modern, studio apartment. (with my bestfriend ofcourse.)

I have a room, but I’d rather have an art studio.

I have no car, but I’d rather have a nice El Camino. (or just any functioning car)

I have friends and family, but I want fans and adorers.

I am grateful for what I have.

But everyone always wants more. More, more, more.

I’m willing to work for more, and settle for what I have in the meantime.

-clean my room

-draw Holly and Andrew

-grocery shopping

-listen to music

-eat

love my life.

Today was a fun day.

Hopefully tomorrow is a productive one.

I never ever want to spend a day sitting at home not doing anything, again.

I’m just not that kind of gal, you see? :)

I know it’s not the art supplies that make the artist,

or the camera that makes the photographer,

but I wish I had a new, nice camera with a big LCD screen.

I love taking photos and it used to be a passion of mine.

But now I’m stuck with my mom’s shitty camera.

I miss taking aesthetically pleasing photos of everything going on around me

and taking my camera with me everywhere.

One of these days, I will save up for a good one :]

I’m in such a good, giggly mood right now.
Topher is coming to get me.
I should get ready.

Love ya, mean it. 

So many ex-boyfriends popping up in unexpected places at unexpected times lately.

Andrew, Cameron, Chris, Wade, blah!
Hahaha. :P 

I cannot easily tiptoe between being a hermit: sitting at home and surrounding myself with aesthetically pleasing things, and dreaming of love and prince charming but being too shy to approach him. doing crafts, painting, reading books, and being an innocent lady, or girl my age. 

and being a party monster. Every night, wanting to go out and drink and smoke. My evil twin, my doppelganger, the promiscuous man-eater, the one who appeared as I got older. It’s a part of me that distracts me from the things I really want in my life.

I wish i could balance the two, and be a healthy whole.

I am slowly trying to accomplish this.

And I will.

how I love thee.

-Gemini